My old bod

On Tuesday I had gallbladder surgery. My gut aches. I feel like some one has gone in and pushed stuff around, and it hurts... I hurt.
Before my surgery I was asked a number of times if I have a living will... and I do have one.
I just bet no one knows about it. I need to get that information out to the people who need to know.

The Race That Was Organized To Honor My Brother

Some of my family and I arrived in New Jersey to attend a race that was organized to promote runners/walkers/people who need a reason to get outside and move... The Heart and Sole 5K - The Peter Boyden Memorial Run and Fundraiser.We came from Vermont, New Jersey and Florida to spend the morning at a race set up in his honor, supporting the idea of what Peter was all about... his love of running, his ability to encourage others, his kindness, and caring...Peter always quoted Confucius saying, "It does not matter how slowly you go, so long as you do not stop."It was a great day.How much better does it get, being with family, the little ones around- Max, Sarah, Emma,and the great role modeling of the runners & walkers: Jessica, Kyler, Dan, Char, Melissa, and Randy and bringing Peter into the picture, talking with his friends. I was part of the group that included Barb, Seth and Al, we walked, played, and talked with the little ones. We clapped and yelled cheers to the runners/walkers too!And when it was over we went home, and basked in the afterglow. For me, it was wonderful.I love my family. I love how we, how others honored my brother. I've made some good friends because of Pete.So family, what were the highs and lows, what did you learn about yourself, what did you learn about the group:the high was coming together for us, for Pete, the low was leaving.I learned I could leave 80 degree weather and be in 47 degree weather with no problem, but I did need a hat. I also believe I will run/walk in the race next year. And about the group, we are a great group, but I knew that already, it is just nice to experience it again. I feel pretty far away and miss them.
http://www.heartsandsoles5k.org/

OK, I made it thru another 1st

January 24th was my birthday. And Family and friends called and sang a variation of Happy Birthday to me and I was touched by each one of the calls. It was a good day. I missed getting my Birthday Babe Boyden card in the mail, but my big brother did wish me both Birthday Babe and Buttercup Greetings.
I did very well without my little brother around, I could laugh, do things and enjoy people, and I just miss him.
I told Randy I would like to get to the place where talking about Peter is just part of the conversation, not a reaction to a painful jolt. And I am getting there.
I loved hearing about Kyler running and using the blog for her motivation/record keeping and for her cheer leaders... Ky, I am wicked proud of you, because you are working on your goal and you are an inspiration. Not that I have gotten out and done any exercise, but I will.
I use to love to say I walked 2 miles every morning or that I walked a 17 minute mile and feel good for doing it... but I have come up with every reason in the book not to walk in the mornings yet... Now I have a cold and I am always tired... so getting up at 5:30 or 6 is just too hard... but I need to replenish my self, fill my own self up and 2 ways I know to do that is meditation and walking. Writing morning pages is always good too, and knitting and making jewelry... and I have so little time to do it all.... so, as Peter use to say: just start 1 thing, a little at a time, and it should be fun.
So I will look for some fun in walking or cleaning my room.
Randy says to start 3 piles, one for goodwill, one to throw away and one to pack away as what I will keep will be in my bins/closet... but then I can overwhelm myself, by saying I need to clean my closet before I clean my room, but I need to clean my desk off before I get to the stuff on the floor, but then I need a flat monitor to save space, but then I have to ask myself, do I need a windows 2000 and a windows 98 cpu with 1 huge monitor... ok, maybe if I answer that question 1st, but then I have to clean the hard drives on the cpu's before I give then away or throw them away ...
So this weekend I will answer that desktop question, and clean the hard drives and move these machines out of my room... there will be so much space...
So I will.
and I have been thinking I want to make my own vera bradley type of a back pack filled with lots of great pockets (I love pockets) I am thinking of a wonderful pattern I could make and even the material, it has to be cool so no sweating while I wear it but rain proof so it doesn't run...wouldn't that be fun..hmmmmmm